Sunday, February 5, 2017

The Old And The Young

Another year in the books. Another year. Apparently I have reached a stage where I am not supposed to tell people about my age. To be honest, I really don't. I still tell people that I am 23 :).
I had this grand big post on my mind. The words were crystal clear in my head but just when I sat down to write I lost my rhythm. They say that- It happens.

Life has been great. I can't complain. There have been a few setbacks but what's life without them?
Professionally I am having the time of my life. The workaholic in me has resurfaced. I thought I didn't have it in me to work longer hours anymore but who knew. I am on a different high.

My cuban friend has his own coffee set up at his desk(Which is strictly prohibited at work because- Fire hazard!). The days when sky comes crashing down, the days it gets only crazier, the days even everything falls apart I go to his desk to steal a few moments of calm. He makes a nice cuppa joe using his nespresso coffee pods. I sit at his desk and we chit chat. Last week he said " Sometimes I really wish that I try all coffees before I die" This one sentence was enough to get me all philosophical. I am on a trip since then. Yes, I am scared of not meeting my milestones but really who isn't? We all have aspirations and plans and then there is a fear of not meeting those goals. I am going through that at the moment. I know its a phase and will be over before I know it.

My birthday this year was different. No festivities. No midnight calls. No people wishing at work. No surprises. Very few phone calls. I was really okay with everything. Is this what growing up feels like?
For whats worth I did have my conversations and a few special gifts. MG got me some pretty white roses and my friend Kay got me home baked power bars :). And I guess those few phone calls were enough for me. I was surprisingly zen about everything and my cheerful positivity irritated me.

I have been pretty restless lately. Like my B'day Twin says - "Never the one to sit still".
Been struggling to maintain my fitness levels at the moment. I have had enough. I am at my best when I feel fit and so I have decided to kick it up a notch. I am all in. The feeling is familiar and it is a lot of hard work. I feel ready though. I just need to find a way to maintain my work-life and balance.

And just like that I decided to gift myself a race this weekend. It was in Packanack Lake with a mug of hot chocolate at the end. It was lovely and beautiful and couldn't have been any better.
Running made feel alright. It gave me the much needed time to connect with my thoughts.

And just like that I baked two birthday cakes today. I needed those birthday vibes. I guess I wasn't really satisfied the way my day had turned out. I am not much about birthday jazz but I still like my little show. Who doesn't?

I am still standing my ground, looking at a world with question marks, figuring out where I stand. Isn't that something?

The show must go on. Happy Birthday to me.
P.S: I did write a birthday post like every year. I tried really hard to refine it, shorten it, brighten it and I just couldn't. I need some more time to work on it and it get my rhythm back. Hopefully sometime this month


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