Saturday, October 8, 2016

Ain't It The Life..?

Note: This post was written a few weeks back and today feels like a good day to talk about it..

The weather is beautiful these days. It is my favorite time of the year. The onset of winters. The beginning of festivities. That familiar craving for warm and comfort meals. Pumpkins are now available in all shapes, sizes and colors. Those warm and fuzzy clothes. The evenings are beautiful these days. The sun sets at around 7 and is perfect for evening runs. The technicolor trees are a visual treat. The slight nip in the air makes all the difference. I went for a run last night and felt superb. I was on to my final mile when this song popped up:

I have heard this song a dozen times already and somehow never felt so strongly about it. When it started playing last night while running it meant a lot. Does it happen to you? This song made all the sense in this whole wide world. I could relate to every line and every word in it.

In other news, my friend Shreeja pinged me this morning to tell me about our school friend who committed suicide. Her death is all over the papers. She has a two year old and was a Doctor working at AIIMS. We were a little hit with this news. She was an intelligent girl who was always in top-3 and eventually cracked her medical entrance and became a Doc.
I am not sure what she was battling but losing purpose in life must be such a heart breaking thing.
Reaching a point in life where you think you've had enough must be quite miserable. Don't you think so? I just know how to fight. Living life on your terms is not always possible and I am accepting this reality a little each day but hey you can't give up. Can you?
I read all articles on the internet around her death. I even checked her Facebook profile and browsed through her photos. We became friends on Facebook when I created my account last year. I thought of pinging her every now and then. I didn't have anything in particular to say to her but I just wanted to reach out and say hii. She always wanted to be doctor and she achieved it. She worked her way towards her dream and joined the best college. I never pinged her. I never congratulated her and I guess I will have to live with this thought for life.

I needed to run today to take everything out of my system. The realization of life being short was hovering over my head and I needed to run away from it.

I decided to lace up, surrender to my thoughts and losing myself to my own oblivion. I needed a shot of endorphins and what better way than running? The same song played again and this time I could relate to it in a much deeper way.

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can't tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me

I tried carrying the weight of the world
But I only have two hands
I hope I get the chance to travel the world
And I don't have any plans
I wish that I could stay forever this young
Not afraid to close my eyes
Life's a game made for everyone
And love is a prize

Sometimes words make so much sense. I wish I could express my thoughts like this.



  1. I think we are all guilty of thinking of people but then not reaching out. Sending a hug