Saturday, October 3, 2015

#OctRunBer

It has been a while since I have written anything here. Anything at all. But then I needed to get back and post about my fitness challenge and life in general. I have been pretty regular with my half marathon training and it feels awesome. I have to admit that I haven't been maintaining the squeaky clean lifestyle diet wise (It is a lot cleaner though) but then a little indulgence is needed from time to time. There has been so much going in life and I think I needed that glass of wine and also that 30 ml Gin last week.

My training for half marathon is pretty rock solid at this point. I am so proud of it and I feel that I have earned the right to brag about it here :). Last week an old friend and my running buddy from Deutschland days asked me if I was running a full marathon (42kms) after reading my running logs. . He was quite surprised and taken aback when I said NO. He feels that I am ready to run a full marathon because I have mileage. I told him I'm mentally not ready to handle a full marathon training. As an experienced marathoner he feels otherwise. This year, I have my own target. This training is special. I had probably a hundred reasons to give up on running but I decided not to. I was running against the wind and in retrospect it only made me stronger. It gave me enough confidence to be amazing.

I have ran half- marathons before and each time it was a challenge. When they said that I wouldn't be able to run the distance I proved them wrong. When they said that my body was not ready for it I proved them wrong. This year I have a target and I have to beat my record. The last few months have been hell and the HM training has kept me sane. It gave me a reason to get up and get going.

Sometimes when you train for something with all your heart and soul it becomes exhaustive. I experienced it last week when I had a mini-meltdown. I think I was a little under the weather. I don't take changing of seasons very well. I had a mild reaction to something and I was feeling really bloated. I drank lots of water, green tea, greens and nothing helped. I was supposed to run an easy 5 miler and ended up running a lot slower than the usual (Mainly because I couldn't maintain the graph that I was expecting) and that resulted in such an outburst. Nothing felt right and I threw a big tantrum.  I was completely wiped. I discussed it with a fellow runner and he suggested a complete rest and that's what I did. I hit the pause button. I had a glass of gin and my favorite ice cream. I rested it out and I am much better this week. To be on the safer side I decided to run on alternate days this week. I just wanted to go a little easy. I think it was a very wise decision to go for a timeout. Pleasure over pressure when it comes to running. I am sure I will be able to get back in full swing this week.

Maybe this meltdown will help me toughen up mentally.

And yeah I do dream of going the full distance someday: 26Point2 miles. The very thought of it gives me goosebumps. I love challenges and beating the odds. I have been doing that for a long time now. At this point in life there is so much happening around me and I don't want to miss it. I am passionate about a lot of things in life and would love to explore those areas too. Also, preparing for 42 kilometers comes with a tag. It demands a greater commitment and I am not sure if I am ready for that. I don't want to run 42 kilometers to get it off my bucket list. I want to run so that I can live and re-live those 42 kilometers and also every kilometer that I log in my running books. Right now that distance is 13Point1 for me. I like this distance and it has kept me on my toes. I want to be somewhere with this distance before I go down the full marathon road. 
Call me a mental weakling or whatever you like for not training for 42kms but right now I am committed to 13Point1 miles and it feels great. Every minute.


And I see I am running my final mile with all my strength
Sweat rolling from my forehead till the it hits my lip
The familiar song starts playing, I look around and say out loud:
And that's it for now

I will complete my rhyme. Someday.

Ciao..
P.S: Sorry for a pretty shabby title but baby that's how things will roll this October
P.S1: Thanks to det-res for pulling me out of my silence
P.S2: Really thinking of starting a new Run-blog. What do you think?

4 comments:

  1. First off, congrats on writing a post after a long time. Secondly I completely support a running/health blog. Most importantly, you have set a personal goal and that is what you are working towards. That is all that matters. It is great that someone more experienced believes you can do more. When you believe that too, I am sure you will go for the 26.2.

    Good luck, look forward to your running updates and some healthy recipes on the way too. :)

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  2. Good luck. I am sure you will get to the full marathon someday going by your updates. And start a blog by all means if it will help you stay on track with your training.

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  3. @Det-res: Thank you. You are my reason :) and yes I am already on a new template. The geeky side is unrolling slowly and steadily :)

    @Preeti: Thanks a lot!! So happy to see you back in the blogger world.

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  4. My best wishes with the marathon.. Good luck.

    and that is a good idea to blog about it .. you dont have to write big article a few lines each day that will help you keeping arecord tooo :) and maybe motivate some lazy people like me :)

    Bikram's

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