Wednesday, August 1, 2012

~~~Leaving on a Jet Plane~~~

The last couple of days have been taxing. Taxing in every possible way.. Emotionally/Mentally/ Physically..
It has been absolutely crazy. So I am headed back to Dilli on coming Saturday.. and YES I am sad. Very sad!

I was supposed to give away my house in the morning back to the broker/ landlord. My Macedonian friend showed up right at 8:00 am to give me support. She warned me last night and told me about her plans. Let's say I underestimated her a bit. She didn't attend one of the routine department meeting to be with me..
Oh Boy!! Do I feel proud? Yes!

The other friend Z actually opened her house for me.She made sure that I didn't check in to the hotel at the last minute.It was one of those moments where you feel proud of yourself for making the right choices in life..

My friend Phish helped me out with so many things that I can't even track anywhere.

The amount of support that I have received from the most unexpected corners has been phenomenal.
A lot of people asked me for the rationale behind my resignation from a well settled job!!
They intimidated me with their skepticism. Some of them passed all their negativity around. Some of them dismissed me as an impulsive girl.
Actually come to think of it.. This all really helped!! I became stronger, clearer and surer of my decision.
I couldn't have just "Settled" for things. I needed to just get up and make things happen for myself..

I have seen people giving excuses all the time. Excuses for not being able to do something that they really want or at least the things that they "Claim" for. I have heard too many of them over a period of time in different areas of life. In my world you get up and take charge of the things you want and then you own the results - good/bad. After a lot of thought I have realized that it is not being impulsive.You can't play safe all the time..!! To cut a long story short I have a simple perspective in life. If you need something you  have to make it happen. If you don't try that means you don't NEED it period. Also, different people have different reasons for not doing so. No judging here. I just didn't want to be one of them.

What lies ahead? Well for starters absolutely nothing!! I have nothing.. Personally I have a lot of targets.
Like I said, I needed to make things happen..Probably it is a stupid decision or a failed decision but I would have never known had I stayed.!!

So for the time being I guess I will be okay.. figuring my way out!! Yes, I am quite looking forward to the "What's Next" part. I am a soup of mixed emotions at the moment.

I will miss the little town I call my own...!!! May be I will never see Vienna . May be I will never get a good job again. Chances are I might not see some of my friends again. Well that's the choice that I made..!!

 I was really thinking..
 "If I leave here tomorrow would you still remember me ?"
You don't have to post comments here.. Shoot me an email  instead:)

So for now "Auf Wiedersehen"
(This one will not be for so long..I promise!!)

P.S : Well it is a  John Denver  song.
It is for all the things I love and I hate to leave behind..
I always wonder why life is not simple anymore.. ?
I hate the stupid complexities.. They always put you back.

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

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