Sunday, August 12, 2012

~~~Black~~~

I have a baby!! I have named him Ed.
Yes I am his mother..  He is a beautiful baby. I love him a lot..
He has honey kissed skin with a beautiful brown head. He is feather light and I am so scared of holding him at times. Like every new mother I try to read  the journals, magazines, online articles everyday to understand him better.
We have our challenges. He tests my patience everyday and I am trying to understand him little by little everyday. Sometimes I just lose it. Then I start again from ground zero.
Slowly and steadily we will get used to each others presence.
Do you want to see him..?


Beautiful isn't it ? Well I always wanted to learn a musical instrument. I decided to give guitaring a shot.. It is difficult. A big challenge. I guess I will do just fine.

For now, I am still trying to figure out the basics.

The weekend was hectic. I went to Agra to see the Mughal Grandeur. I was somehow more fascinated with the Agra fort than the Taj Mahal. It is no doubt one of the most beautiful man made thing ever. For me, it was too good to be true. It was like a fairytale standing right in front of me.
The Agra fort on the other hand looked real. I could feel the history while taking rounds of the Agra Fort. Whenever I see perfection I find more reasons to not to believe it.
With Taj Mahal I was speechless. It was about perfection in every sense..Even a perfect story to boast off. I am impressed. For some, there is indeed a happily ever after!!

Now, I am tired , sick and energyless. Oh Gosh, I miss saying " Sunday Night Blues" / Monday Blues.. I am as jobless as they get. Hopefully this shall pass too.
Sometimes when I talk to people I often end up consoling them for my unemployment. It is a choice that I made. A friend of mine pinged me a while ago...

He: Hey! I read your last day email.
It was full of emotions.
Me: That was the intent. I didn't want to hold my emotions back..
He: Hey! Are you ok? I mean you resigned without a new job.
Me: Sometimes, you have to do what you have to do.. Right or wrong does not matter then.
He: I understand. You must be really feeling low. Are you sure you will be ok?
Me: I am more than ok at the moment.
He: I thought you loved it there.
Me: Yes, more than anything!
He: Oh poor child.. I hope you are ok..?
Me: You ask me this one more time and I am blocking you for life. I AM OKAY.
He: Don't be angry. I was just making sure of your well being.

Crazy world? I am pretty ok and chilled out.
I saw a movie a couple of months back and can't stop thinking about one dialogue..
"Life Passes most people by while they are making grand plans for it..."
I didn't want to be one of those people. Hence, here I am. Yes I do miss my life there! "A Lot" would be an understatement. It was my time to be out of my comfort zone and take a few chances..!!

There is nothing in the pipeline. To be very honest I was expecting a few things.. A few dramatic turn arounds.. Nothing Happened!! ( I know .. 10 lines above I wrote that I have trouble believing in fairytales..!) I just need to get more real now..!!

Ciao..
P.S: The song is by Pearl Jam.
When I was talking about the perfect love story behind Taj Mahal I didn't mention the tragic
love story of Prince Salem and Anarkali..  I didn't want to mention it up there. It was all about perfection.
The story just reminded me of this song..It is a beautiful song!
Yeah
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a star
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why
Why can't it be
Why can't it be mine

2 comments:

  1. yeah, That is true. everybody is busy in making of there future. Nobody is bothering about the present. We realise it when we have missed the golden periods. People these days are more after making money , careers than finding love and happiness within.
    keep posting.:)

    ReplyDelete
  2. Congratulations. Ed is beautiful. :)

    ReplyDelete