Monday, July 16, 2012

~~~The Wonder Years~~~

After all, if growing up is war, then the friends who grew up with you deserve a special respect. The ones who stuck by you shoulder to shoulder, in a time when nothing was certain, all life lay ahead, and every road led home. ~Kevin Arnold

This quote is from my favorite TV series (The Wonder Years..) I just can't stop thinking about growing up. Coincidentally I have had this conversation with multiple people and they all kind of agreed with me.In my last post I talked about growing up and how I don't like it. I thought I just needed to finish that thread.I was really not done in my last post I really don't know if I love/hate growing up. Both emotions have their strong reasons.
Yes, I hate growing up. As a grown up, I have to make important decisions.. (more importantly the wise ones..). The other grown up's don't even realize how they just crush my  hopes,expectations,  feelings,excitement with their worldly wise decisions.I complete the circle by doing the same thing to the others. ..It is really difficult growing up. You think about the future a little too much. You want things/people and at the same time you don't do anything about them.It is not because you cannot do anything but you are too scared of failures.You just end up giving excuses to yourself and to the others. What really freaks me out is that I see these things and yet I don't question them.After all I am just another apple in the basket. I really miss the spontaneity and the ease with which we could be spontaneous.For ex- Why do we always have to fix / plan "appointments" why can't it just be "On the go".. like a surprise like we always did a couple years ago?

On the other hand I like growing up also.. I don't feel the need to fit in with the group anymore. I have become very much my own person.I think I have developed a lot of patience now. I can handle failures and disappointments better. I have learnt to control my wild outburst of emotions. The most important thing is that I have learnt is to 'Let Go' of things. May be I am becoming 'Worldly Wise' too. I have just learnt to accept my shortcomings. 

I know the feeling of growing up is bitter sweet. Another few years from now I would still be writing about growing up..( As I was a couple of years ago..)The meaning of growing up changes after every two years isn't it ? At this point in life, as much as I miss the craziness, the energy ,the  raw emotions over logic.. I also like the calm, composure and counting my steps before walking. I know what I want from life at this point ( Growing Old eh?).. It is crystal clear in my head the only problem is that I am a chicken (The downside of growing old..:().
I know every person evolves for the better. I miss the spunk of the younger days. I am really not the only one who feels that way.
In Eby's words." Growing up is a pain! Literally..!"My German friend said..(Paraphrasing her here..)
" I see that the level of excitement/passion is missing in everything.. right from relationships to wearing a new dress to work ' ( I see that she has a point here..!). "

I guess it has been a long post and I have blabbered enough..
Life is good.. I am holding my ground tight..!!
I have really started loving small things in life . Taking long walks in the evening , Going to coffee shops to just sit and clear my head , Take my coffee to the park near my house and watch little children playing around crazily etc etc.. I hate doing these things alone but I still do them. There is a lot of satisfaction in doing these things in the evening.

Over and Out!

P.S : It is the theme song of "The Wonder Years" by Joe Cocker.
Pretty Obvious choice for the title isn't it?
The actual title is " With a little help from my friends "Well the song is more popularly known as the "The Wonder Years". Beautiful song and very catchy!

What would you think if sang out of tune,
Would you stand up and walk out on me ?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key.

Would you believe in a love at first sight
Yes I'm certain that it happen all the time
What do you see when you turn out the light
I can't tell you but I know it's mine, 


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