Monday, June 25, 2012

~~~Bittersweet Symphony~~~

I really have nothing in particular to talk about.. I just wanted to write and hence I am here..
So this will be one of those posts with full of disconnected things..These things might not make any sense to you at all. You are free to close your internet browser. Come back after a few days and you might find a happy shiny post ...

**I was digging into my drafts and found so many 'unsent' emails..
Some of them were angry emails to different people at different times.I thanked my lucky stars so many times for stopping me at the right moment from sending out those emails. It would have been really difficult to take those words back.I couldn't even recognize the girl in those emails. She was so full of anger and spite. She was ruthless.I thought of deleting them.I didn't really want to live with the remote possibility of sending them under the external influence for example: alcohol. Then I decided against it. The very reason I wrote those emails was because I was hurt too. Why didn't I send those emails ? Well every time something hurts me I try not to think about it .. I take it out once and for all ( And in this case in form of nasty emails). I just say four words to calm my nerves down .. "Tomorrow will be better" . Anyway, those emails are still in my drafts . It is a good reality check once in a while. I have promised myself to Never again lose my temper and do something stupid like this. I will try my best to be calmer, more patient and level headed..!

**I will be watching my dream in Flesh and Blood. No,This is not a zombie movie or a vampire fascination.I am talking about Pearl Jam here. The whole package (round trip + the concert ticket ) was expensive but then I decided to part with the idea of buying this beauty. I think watching Pearl Jam is more important for me. This experience will be once in a lifetime thing for me.. Watching your favorite bands play live is a different feeling altogether.

**I was feeling really uninspired and dull when my friend phish incepted the idea of Scuba Diving course into my head. Of course I did a lot of "Ohh I can't do it.. I don't even know swimming... I don't want to make a fool out of myself." To be honest now I am really taken with the idea of Scuba Diving course.. I think the body needs something different every once in a while. It is good to venture into something unknown.
Life is all about trying something new everyday.. making the most of what we can!

Trust me I have a lot of other disconnected things also. I really don't have any clue as to how should I put them in appropriate words. My mind is a soup of different emotions right now. I really don't know how to even bring them to the table. I am excited, I am nervous, I am scared, I am clueless, I am angry, I am anticipating things... I am not very good with putting my emotions crystal clear in front of anyone. It is always a shade of grey. I think I have overdosed you with my thoughts. Before I put you to sleep with my musings I should sign off..
I will be back with a happy post!
P.S: The song is by the band The Verve
Well this post reminded me of some bittersweet times so thought of using it as a title..

"'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Trying to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the veins meet yeah"


  1. Just happen to have almost samething to me, I just did not keep the draft of the mail and sent to her.
    it was totally unexpected for both of us.
    these things do ruin the relationships, if dont care properly
    Will have to write another mail for appologies If she comes to taiking terms.

  2. Well I can imagine what that must have been like. I have messed up a lot of good friendships like that.

    Think Twice before hitting on the Send Button!

    On a more positive note, like they say you can't take back your words but you can always take back things..
    It is just that you will have to do a million things to make up for it!

    All the best!

  3. yeah, will be writing another mail to get the things back.
    Will have to take proper care.
    And ready to do whatever needed to get the things back on track.:(
    Coincidently, found your blog with similar thoughts going through my mind..:)

    PS: Thanks for wishes:)

  4. Well, You just gave me a reason to feel inspired.. :)
    I am glad I am not the only one with randomness around. I read your blog too. Talks about a lot of social issues and it feels good to read such things!!

    Stay here on this space!

  5. Looking fwd to your post bout the PJ experience!!! Your excitmnt is contagious!

  6. Gunj : I am looking forward to that as well.. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY :)

    I think excitement is in the air for everyone at the moment..!!